The Walk Back Home

Because in a lot of sense we are. This needs to be prefaced by the fact that homelessness is  hard work.  If you strip down the scheduling, employment hierarchy, and other arbitrary components of what encompass a “job,” what you’re left with is  work:  exerting effort to manipulate and create change in the world around you. Homelessness is a lot of work. From sunup to sundown you’re carrying either a 50+ lb hiking backpack or pushing a shopping cart laden with all your possessions. Simple travel becomes a work of creativity and high-intensity interval training. Even trying to walk a shopping cart with 200+ pounds (say, you and your partner’s backpacks, a tent, several blankets, some clothes, a stove, a bit of food, and some goods you picked up in hopes of selling) onto the sidewalk from the regular wheelchair on-ramp usually causes it to hitch on the small bump. If you’re alone that means you have to push down on the bottom bar with one foot, leverage the shopping ca...

I'm on the same road and the parallel between twin flame and narcissist/empath relationships just propelled me several hundred yards closer towards my endgame conclusion on what sort of being it was who rearranged my personality and self-image so innocently and effectively. A twin flame isn't supposed to be warm and inviting though. It's more like a flame that gets lit under your ass, or a flame that burns your eyes because it shines a mirror into the deepest parts of your core whether or not you're ready to look at them and won't relent. Then if they happen to be a narcissist, they'll shatter the mirror and leaves you stuck picking up all the broken bits and pieces of your own reflection while they sidle off into some other poor soul's vanity cabinet. Give 'em a real hefty dose of who they actually are before pulling out the sledgehammer and smashing it to bits. When we're avoidant the only thing we're avoiding is ourselves. The real, deep, tru...

 Wow, okay. As a skilled introvert (lol), and this might only make sense after reading this post, it seems that a simple feeling or intuition felt in the shower needs to be unpacked into several pages worth of writing. TLDR at the bottom. I thought about this a lot having just gotten out of a 5 year relationship with the most extroverted girl I know (who, for whatever reason, was convinced she was an introvert even though she couldn't be alone in a room for more than 30 minutes alone without having to call me, or a friend, or a family member). She goes to parties and can easily pull an all nighter just constantly talking to anyone and everything. Me on the other hand, I'm having to guzzle drinks or worse just to keep up with the conversation. But I got thinking on to why that is. Why am I guzzling drinks or doing lines? What exactly is the function of this behavior? Well, to reduce inhibitions. Inhibitions for what? Self-expression. Okay, we all know that. But what's not di...

 Warning: this post is not for the light-hearted. Not that any of the stuff I post on this account is. But this is a history dump of some of the heavier issues humanity's had to contend with over the last... I think I cover 5 centuries? With a very light sketch that connects the dots just enough for anyone to see the obvious connection. But you can skip all the heaviness and enjoy the grand conclusion, which is: human history has been guided by conspiracies - actual conspiracies, as in, groups of people with wealth and influence making decisions together that affect the rest of us - for its entire history. Unfortunately, the people pointing out the conspiracies when there's still time to do anything about them, are inevitably branded as lunatics, heretics, conspiracy theorists, nut jobs, or, if they have enough influence, they'll just have a mysterious car crash or commit suicide or have a heart attack or suddenly have 40 people testify in court that they were sleeping arou...

  Oh my god, how do I opt out of LIFE. Before anyone misconstrues this, I'm not talking smack about vaccines: I know health issues associated with them are statistically rare. But I am encouraging people to become more aware of how blatant and stupid the media is becoming in its attempts to divert public attention. Or to the fact that it seems to be working. Cuz wait, suddenly in 2022 researchers have discovered that video games can cause FATAL CARDIAC ARREST in kids predisposed to arrythmia! And somehow they didn't notice that before! Really? Hello? Undiagnosed arrythmia can cause cardiac arrest, blackouts, and death FROM THE ADRENALINE SPIKE CAUSED BY SWATTING A FLY. Why pick video games? Why now? Given the backdrop of the global health scene this is just scandalous. Altogether they say there have been 22 cases documented. Ever. I'm sure there are thousands of kids who have died playing video games from all sorts of different causes. Games have been played for half a cen...

 It wasn't this bad simply because of the lack of industrialization, but people still became addicted. Granted, addiction was approached differently, and there were much more effective community-oriented methods of "helping wrest one of our brothers/sisters from the grip of tobacco." But if you go down to South America today you'll find that tribes imbibe tobacco (natural tobacco, mapacho tree bark, rapè snuff, etc) just like they always did. It's a lot harder to get addicted to tobacco when you have to go through the ritualistic process of preparing it and. Most likely unless you were entrusted as a medicine holder you wouldn't just have tobacco sitting around. The shaman down the trail wouldn't be willing to sell you a pack of mapacho bark pre-rolls for 10 bags of coca leaves, either. Plus tribal lifestyle involves a bond of community that I doubt (m)any of us are familiar with That alone is probably enough to discourage someone from sneaking off into th...