The Walk Back Home

  Was just reading an old post from u/tylerisdead that said Some people even can play with it a bit and put it down without thinking about it. But for that portion of people that feel like opiates almost... Complete something that was missing in them. It will catch up to them eventually. Because if it seems too good to be true, it is. And it's true. You either get addicted to opiates, or you don't get the hype. To some they're just painkillers that make you feel queasy. To others, they're the missing link, the lost piece of the puzzle, the bit of glue that finally sticks together some broken piece of childhood or sense of self. But what is it? People - myself included - say it's different for everyone, but I'm not so sure. I'm wondering if there's not a specific type of trauma - sure, perhaps a fairly broad classification of traumas, but something specific nonetheless - that binds opiate users. Robert Anton Wilson's summation of Timothy Leary's ...

  Sorry everybody, I am tired of coming off like a hardass but this has become a life or death situation. Those who are arguing against me in favour of these pharmaceutical companies can no longer stand on a firm foundation for debate since we have documents from a very company itself technology that their drug caused widespread death and irreversible injury 200 and thousands of people within 90 days of its release. We have court transcripts that show how they appealed to have these documents hidden from the public view for 55 years. Do you know what this is? It’s a conspiracy. It’s not a theory, though. A conspiracy theorist is somebody who believes that groups of people with power and wealth make plans and pool resource to produce certain results. When you look at the definition, you have to admit (especially in light of recent exposures) that it seems a bit foolish and naive to believe anything else. I’ll entertain a few alternatives… perhaps when someone finally becomes CEO of ...

  The most important thing that we can do as a species is to bring awareness to Wetiko, the mind virus, the soul destroyer, the source by which evil, war, deception and greed manifest. Jung called it the “seed of evil,” the Gnostics refer to it as the archons. It has also been called, nearly a century ago, “totalitarian psychosis,” a very relevant way to describe its expression today. t is a non-local quantum force in superposition that might be considered the polar opposite of the force that animates life. Of course, you can deny its existence. These things will continue to happen whether or not you believe in it. But once we recognize its influence we can begin to bring an end to this needless suffering, and the longer we go without recognizing Wetiko the more chance it has to sink its tendrils into the human subconscious and cause us to harm ourselves and others while we believe we are doing good. “Wetiko is a cannibalizing force driven by insatiable greed, appetite without s...

 TL:DR; have been holding off on trying some special nootropics for several years because I wanted to wait until, if ever, I reached a state where I felt completely incapable of repairing my life due to my addiction. Unfortunately I've been there the last few weeks; yesterday I remembered the noots and gave them a try. Since then I've drastically reduced my usage and have been focusing on much more productive things that can actually help push me towards recovery. I decided to write this post as I was sitting here at my computer, starting to get the sweats. And the chlils. Thinking to myself, "fuck, I'm getting sick... better take a hoot soon." Then I did a double-take. What? I'm so engaged and focused on my work that I'm prioritizing it above smoking dope? I've actually been sitting here enjoying what I'm doing for long enough that dopesickness could start to set in before compulsively going to smoke more? The weird thing is I'm not hyperfocus...