The Walk Back Home

I'm on the same road and the parallel between twin flame and narcissist/empath relationships just propelled me several hundred yards closer towards my endgame conclusion on what sort of being it was who rearranged my personality and self-image so innocently and effectively. A twin flame isn't supposed to be warm and inviting though. It's more like a flame that gets lit under your ass, or a flame that burns your eyes because it shines a mirror into the deepest parts of your core whether or not you're ready to look at them and won't relent. Then if they happen to be a narcissist, they'll shatter the mirror and leaves you stuck picking up all the broken bits and pieces of your own reflection while they sidle off into some other poor soul's vanity cabinet. Give 'em a real hefty dose of who they actually are before pulling out the sledgehammer and smashing it to bits. When we're avoidant the only thing we're avoiding is ourselves. The real, deep, tru...

 Wow, okay. As a skilled introvert (lol), and this might only make sense after reading this post, it seems that a simple feeling or intuition felt in the shower needs to be unpacked into several pages worth of writing. TLDR at the bottom. I thought about this a lot having just gotten out of a 5 year relationship with the most extroverted girl I know (who, for whatever reason, was convinced she was an introvert even though she couldn't be alone in a room for more than 30 minutes alone without having to call me, or a friend, or a family member). She goes to parties and can easily pull an all nighter just constantly talking to anyone and everything. Me on the other hand, I'm having to guzzle drinks or worse just to keep up with the conversation. But I got thinking on to why that is. Why am I guzzling drinks or doing lines? What exactly is the function of this behavior? Well, to reduce inhibitions. Inhibitions for what? Self-expression. Okay, we all know that. But what's not di...